I wanted to write this piece to share with you all just how much life can turn around when you least expect it and that more importantly, when you let go and trust your intuition endless possibilities can come to fruition.
Firstly I need to apologise for being a little absent on here of late. I spent months preparing for the launch of this blog and making sure I was happy with it. When I finally launched it I felt a sense of achievement and accomplishment, however, since then I have been a bit like Houdini. That said, the aforementioned lack of communication has also given me the grounds to write what I hope to be a great post due to my reasons for being absent.
In a very short amount of time I feel as though my world has been flipped on its head, on it’s side, and all other kinds of wonderful and wacky positions.
Not so long ago I was out of a job, single, going through a difficult living situation, generally feeling a little lost and my outlook on life certainly could have been better.
My time off work (due to a redundancy) was both difficult and a blessing. For the most part I am a girl who likes routine and when that routine is thrown out the window I tend to feel a bit left of center. We all daydream about what fun filled activities we would fill our days off with and revel in thinking about all that we could achieve with this newfound freedom. Thing is, when you’re not working you also don’t have a source of income, you can feel as though you don’t have a real sense of purpose and the days can seem a little too free.
Sure I enjoyed my time off but I started to feel like I was floundering too. ‘When will I get another job?’ ‘What would I be willing to do if I absolutely had to get some income fast?’ ‘When will I feel excited again?’
It eventually got to a point where I let go of this internal struggle and trusted that things would be ok and work out in the end. I knew I would get another job when the time was right and I stopped feeling guilty for not working and enjoyed not having to join the rat race of a 9-5, working in an air conditioned, fluorescent lit office. ‘How often do we actually get to have some time off in between jobs to just be?’ I thought.
Interestingly enough once got over the emotional battle with myself, things started to turn around and boy did they ever!
I focused my energy and time on doing positive things like ensuring that I launched this website prior to getting another job which required me to decide on a name for it which I had been struggling with for some time. I could commit more fully to my studies and take it all in at my own pace. I started building better relationships with people in my life, some new, some old.
I started saying yes more to opportunities that came my way.
Before I knew it I had been offered a fantastic new job, I had booked in to go sky diving with a beautiful new friend, I attended an inspiring workshop, I had signed up to do an intense weekend long life transformation course even though to begin with I was little skeptical, my living situation was fun again, and my outlook on life was flying higher than a kite.
As if that wasn’t enough, a couple days before starting my new job a chance encounter led me to possibly the greatest thing in all of this. One late afternoon my grumbling tummy took me out of the house to grab some lunch and within two minutes of leaving the house something happened that would have a bigger impact on me than I realised at the time. I ran into a guy who I have known on and off for a couple years through mutual friends however we didn’t know each other all that well (although truth be told I’d always thought he was easy on the eyes and there was something special about him that stuck with me).
He invited me along to watch him play at a music gig and despite not knowing anyone else going I followed my instincts and took myself along and we’ve been attached at the hip ever since. I knew running into him that day was no accident.
I haven’t been able to wipe the smile off my face thinking about how all of these aspects of my life turned around in such a short amount of time: new job, new love, new flat mate, deepened relationships and a newfound love for life and for myself. INCREDIBLE!
Upon further reflection, I realised just how many changes I have seen this past year and how life has shown me both ends of the spectrum. I have experienced extreme highs and lows, faced grief and loss, love and light.
Perhaps it’s all part of me growing up and maturing but I am in absolute awe of this shiny, sparkling and colourful life we get to live.
I’m an avid believer that everything happens for a reason and although at times it can be hard to see that (especially when less favourable things happen), I have learnt that it’s all for the greater good and my life really is unfolding as it should.
Now to leave you with one of my favourites…
‘In the end everything will be ok, and if it’s not ok, it’s not the end.
What about you? Have you learnt to let go of something and produced great results? I’d love to hear in the comments below.
*Feature image photo by Amanda Cass